Gone Missing

Been looking for answers

Keeping questions from you

We used to lie together

No lies between us

We lived on desire

I miss waking every morning with you by my side

Oh how I long to be back there

Just dreaming of the life we’d share

Before all this worrying took hold

Now I try to feel the love

I know you once

Felt

For

Me

But it’s gone missing

Far off with your wandering mind

And …..

How can I escape the heartache

of you loving another

While I only loved you

How can I share this bed 

Knowing you shared a bed with her

Knowing she lied in your arms

While you came home and lied to me

What am I supposed to do

With all this useless desire

Where am I supposed to go

When the only home I know

Is in your arms

And …..

How can I escape the heartache

of you loving another

While I only loved you

when your hurt and your sadness sit like a stone

grey and green and too heavy to throw
blue rivers of tears, a yellow desert of fears
your broken heart pierced upon the weather vane
it's rusted cast iron commanded by the wind
when you just don't know where to go

if you've found yourself spinning with no legs to get up and go
then come to me my friend
i'll know where you are and what it's like to be you
i've seen that darkness too
it can swallow you up and pull you down
to the bottom of its' deep well of lies

fight your hardest my sweet and keep taking breaths
there is no fire that burns as bright as the fire of truth
so no matter what you find or how hard it may be to look
it's the only way to survive

get up my pony  your spindly legs are strong
stronger than you know
jump those fences now and be on your way
a greener pasture waits for you

tomorrow might be 100 days away
that's ok you'll be alright
just keep on searching and don't give in to the wolves who told you those lies
just get up my pony and ride
get up my pony
love is on your side
a greener pasture waits for you

lately i

lately i've taken to walking 

the weather doesn't matter and the fog can't keep me in

all last winter i spent holed up like a grizzly bear

my mind glued like honey on trying to keep from loosing you

but the dreary spring came and i cried like rain 

anyhow, you still went and the summer blazed
i was left staring at an empty plate, an open calendar, and a shutting door

i know the holidays won't mean as much this year

lately i've taken to walking 

i make notice of what the young people wear to keep the fall at bay
i guess this winter i'll go skiing on a far away mountain

in hopes my mind will freeze it's memories of you

and when the dreary spring comes i'm gonna walk in the rain
i'll plant some gladiolas to have something to look forward to come june

when the heat waves roll down i won't close up my windows

i'll lie awake listening to the world

maybe next year i'll celebrate on christmas

anyhow, i'm doing better off now without you 

lately i've taken to walking

crazy eyes

i wasn't invited but i showed up anyway

someone had to put the fire out before the whole damn building burned to the ground

i thought i knew a little something about the character of you

but you blew my mind, you blew my faithful little mind

well hey now baby crazy eyes

they don't understand you 

and sometimes neither do i 

but i...

i've loved you for too long to let you suicide 

and i don't mind

that you walk too fast and you always take too much

i just hate it that whenever you look back all you can see is blue

a cloud of confusion  trails you like a cheap private i

and i'm waiting on the day you finally remember what you were ever doing here

it's all but forgotten to me now and by that i mean i haven't forgotten at all

but i'm trying

there's a waterfall in southeastern kentucky that i never told you about

close to corbin where the moonbow arcs in the clear light of a full moon 

but you probably already know all about that

well hey now baby crazy eyes

they don't understand you 

and sometimes neither do i

but i...

i've loved you for too long to let you suicide 

and i don't mind

that you walk too fast and you always take too much

i just hate it that whenever you look back all you can see is blue

i'm just waiting on the day you finally remember what you were ever doing here

Dorado

we watched as the horses galloped across the sky

renamed the constellations beneath the northern lights

i'd never seen anything so beautiful

you took that as a sign 

but it snows too hard in michigan 

for a heart that belongs to the sun

we read about dorado on the way to macinaw

it wasn't easy to find a swordfish in the stars

but you kept on searching 

like the way i pointed out your flaws

and it snows too hard in michigan 

for a heart thats on the run

running backwards now

don't even know what lead me there

blurry scenes like tornados swirling up in dreams

october brings a warning reminds us of all that ends

oh it snows too hard 

it snows to hard in michigan 

for a dark heart that needs the light

it snows too hard in michigan 

for a heart that never gets it right

from a hotel window in seattle
i traced the path of a passing ferry
could you be a passenger
heading up to whidbey to see your kin

ive been to anacortes
circled round in a kayak
searching for humpback whales
all i was really doing was killing time hoping to see you again

those shadows on the water
pulled like magnets deep and blue
dragged me down under
to a world where i could not breath
that's when i knew id have to surrender
and leave your hometown for good

maybe i just need a new summer
maybe i just need a happy new year
i might need a new lover
but i just don't see how i'm ever gonna recover from losing you

i've packed up all of my cameras
my itinerary tells me i'm going back east
to stay up and watch the sun rise
and let this western sun finally set on you

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